I'm sorry I can't be perfect

hmm..

I hate who I am. I just wanna be slightly normal. I’m proud of how I dress and how I present myself. I just wish I didn’t have so many fears and problems in my way. I like being different but sometimes I wanna know what its like. What its like to be completely calm without medication. I want just one day free of worries and anxiety. Especially because I shouldn’t worry so much. I just wish I understood why I have to be like this all the time. Because panic attacks aren’t fun.

20 20 20 - 4 hours beforeee, i wanna be sedated<3